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Ave the strange.

Your gonna catch a cold, From the ice inside your soul~

OMG i havent updated since forever(so~ the drama!) :P so lately been bz with assignments and yeah, i moved to a new house AGAIN! yes, but hopefully this time its permanent. Its a bit small but its got what  i need to survive my college years. So no photo for this post nor is there anything i want to share.. ignore the title lately i've been obsessing the song Jar of Hearts, yeah! i know its an old song but because of Sam Tsui i'm listening to it all over again! he has a voice that could melt down my heart and brain. his voice is like sex to my ears like seriously! k.k. enough with the drama, shesh~ whats wrong with me. So i've started my semester, two subject for this short one. Animation 1 And Video production 1, so i;m gonna have to complete two projects which is an Animation of my own and a TV Commercial that i have to make, and the brand that i'm doing is Silky Girl and tralalala!!!! the model for my latest video would be Nor Azlina(get ready to be tormented) :P kidding.. i'm not a bully k? so enough of the blabber talk(i always say this dont i?) lets cut to the chase, just wanted to update this blog and wanted to share info about my new life. (oh... a cute kitten just walked by>_<) ok ignore my RETARDNESS for awhile :P The house that i've moved on to is not really that far from college but we have to take the bus everyday to college which takes years to arrive to! and oh yah... you know what happened recently? one of the bus drivers was asking for my number, yeah! MY number!! it was kinda of a scary,akward and an annoying moment cuz i was all alone in the bus and thank god there were people comming into the bus at the moment and the bus driver was like "takpalah takda jodohlah tu kalau ada jodoh da bglah no tu kan? takpa mungkin lain kali.." like what the f??? lain kali, seriously i'd rather skip the bus home! not that i have anything against bus drivers(eventhough i hate them sometimes bcuz they'renot punctual) but i hate it when men do stuff like this, i'm not a social person mind you! so i dont know how to react to stuff like this xpecially if its so sudden. So yeah, that's what happened. what do you guys think? Scary? annoying? akward? what would u do? leave a comment or better yet PM me on facebook! till the next post..

Toodles~


Ave The Strange

Chictopia~

So hi, this is the second entry for this day alone.. WHAT? yeah thats right its the second blog entry! just wanted to talk about this website Chictopia which is a site for people who love fashion and share their style there on the site. You can vote for which ever photos you like and you could load up your own photo's to your blog and tag on what clothes and stuff that you are wearing. Its pretty fun! well at least thats what I think :P other than this site theres Lookbook.nu which is similar to chictopia (at least I think so), these sites are not just for girls they're also for guys too! there are quite a number of guys on the site and they sure are stylish. It doesnt matter if you wear a t-shirt, jeans and flip flops cuz thats your style. Its not about who's best dressed but just sharing your style, and you could shop and swap there too.. its a good place to look for inspiration when deciding on what to wear out sometimes. I have an account, when will you? go and sign up maybe i'll like your Photo too :D and that wraps up this update. Style UP!

Waiting for you,


Ave The Strange.

Have A Break! Have A KIT KAT!

Hye guys, its 3 in the morning and i'm still running! i dont know why i'm not sleepy or even tired yet, its not like i had coffee or anything today. Well enough of the thoughtless chatter and lets get to the topic. Lately alot more Malaysian are making Vlogs on youtube and i think thats great! but still the number of vloggers are still small and i hope more would come up to voice out in their videos :) like i used to once upon a time. Other than the vlogger stuff, i love searching on girls who are wearing hijab and suprisingly there are alot that you could take as inspiring fashionistas! and alot more people are realizing that, and i love that alot more girls are starting to wear hijab but the thing is if you wanna wear it, WEAR IT! not just as a fashion thing, but because you really want to. I know how Malaysians love to follow trends and stuff but sometimes its kinda annoying knowing that its just for a short while. When Shuffling was in everyone shuffled even on the streets at Bukit Bintang, but now do you see anyone doing that? not really.. and the trend now is everyone must have a DSLR camera and take lame photos and adding marks like "mariaPhotography" and such just to show off? what is with all that? cant you just mark it with your name? you really need to type in those Photography words on too so people know its art? its actually really annoying! and everyone must ride fixie bikes too.. or they wont be in the click? and here we r at the last thing Hijab! people are getting more and more obsessed with Hana Tajima and such but why should you follow the trend if its for a short while? why cant you do things the way you want it? and wear whatever you want whenever you want? learn to be independant not dependant on what people think of you. I love wathing girls wear hijab but learn to love it and be a good Muslim dont use it as a tool to attract attention. That is all for this post, thats my take for the new trends the kids are following this days. Till next time!

Cheerio,


Ave The Strange

Lets jump up & down & pretend its ok :D

nothing to say just to watch i guess? enjoy if you like this.. it's so sweet how he took care of his fiance even though she's not really her old self anymore. I want to be exactly like him, i'll b there through the highs and the lows.. even if he gets sick like Chris Medina's fiance. I am feeling alot better thanks to a few friends, sorry didnt reply any private messages. I just simply didnt know what to write, and thanks to my beshties Myra, Eika, and Effa for being there for me and making me feel better, thanks to Marija, Isyamir, and Syahmi for asking me to share the problem. Love all you guys, thanks for being the most awesome friends ever(eventhough we never met before) :) cheers,

Thanks a bundle,

Ave The Strange.

Drowning & nobodies saving me

hye, so lately i have been gloomy and not bright like i used to b. life looks so dark nowadays that it frightens me, nobodies there to hear me out on my problems not even my my bf(now my ex) its frustrating to try to speak out when no one is listening, and your screaming to the top of your lungs and nobody cares. i feel like i've lost all hope in living at all. everything thats dear to me are taken away and in a few more days or month i'm surely goona give up for good cuz i;m just waiting for that buzzer to sound. i cant stand watching every one that i love in pain and i;m the one who stands by to listen to them taking up all their fear and pain to make them feel better when i myself am in pain & no one ever wants to save me not even the dearest to me. To the people around me, i;m selfish cuz i dont give them what they can give me, money, help, food, fun! but they dont see that all i want is a talk, a hug, some caring and love. When i;ve been trying to give them all that they wouldnt even care to notice. I am a nobody i have nothing more to give other than that, and i've given up hope in all of the creatures that are men. They dont care, they just give pain. they give hope and take it away, they leave their children, loved ones, wife or anything else for fun, for joy they only come back when they want love. some people might like that but for me, a person who lived alone her whole life, and the only love that i get is from my mother who is hardly home working. & my brother who left the house when i was in primary school to live in the hostel. my only best friend is myself, the only person who knew what men did to me is me. people around me dont know anything that happened to me. i never share cuz no one listens. & when i try to trust, i'm decieved and i'm left to suffer alone. all i wanted was to be happy and no one could give me that and now more torture is given to my family and me. and i finally think that its time for me to leave. And no one would care if i go, so i'll suffer slowly to my end. whatever it takes to end the misery through the pills or the smoke. i'll just end up another pile of dirt right? till we meet again(if we do) take care. Salam

Love you till death,

Ave The Strange.

I just wanna runaway

havent written in a decade & lately i cant tell you how depressed i am & i havent really been myself lately, really feel like jumping off a bridge or just slashing my face with razors(thats how depressed i feel). & thanks to he is we for making me smile lately their songs are really nice & helps me get to sleep at night. i'm not realy gonna tell you guys about the major reason why i'm depressed cuz this time i feel its just killing me, im just gonna tell you guys about the small stuff that is making me depressed. Last month my lappy crashed and caused me to loose two of my major projects and caused me to repeat one of them that would cost me a few hundred ringgits thanks for nothing PC. & i need a new laptop too to top that off i need a camera too!! so adding it all up repeating subjct(not gonna tell you how much)+new lappy(about 4000)+a new camera(about 2000) = alot to think of. So thanks to some of my friends for cheering me up and making me feel alot more happier then i have been a few months, & thank you for all the other people that have been making me feel like crap cuz u guys are awesome & spectacular!! for now i dont think i'll be posting much & i wont be happy or jolly about anything so if anything good comes along i'll be sure to notify you guys. Thanks for reading & understanding.


Lots of love,

Ave The Strange.

Press Play

hey guys, its February going on March and you know whats coming up in March? of course you dont why the hell would you know its my life not yours right? well for me March is the most wonderful month in the calender cause my big day is on March. YUP! you got that right my birthday is on March! + a few of my friends are celebrating their birthdays in that month too. other than that early this March me and a couple of my friends or should i say crew? are gearing up for our Music Video shoot for my final assignment on Video & Editing for those who do not know the song that i'm supposed to shoot, the song is Secret by One Republic. We're hoping that we would get the best video ect. but all depends on how well we do on set and how well I edit the video. our video features a member of the band Bourjuis who is also my big bro Joe and another from the band Hurly Burly which is also the vocalist of the band Ejoy and of course i wont forget to mention my homey Naze for being the leading actress in this vid. A few other friend of ours are also going to help and those (lucky?) guys are Raja!!! and Para (or so that is what i call him). we hope that our vid would get views if we post them on Youtube and of course Facebook. The vid is about a misunderstanding that happened between the character Audrey and her boyfriend Matt and if you wanna know the rest of the story you'd have to wait till the MV is released, i'm not gonna squeeze out the juice before it even develops so stay tuned for that!! well i think this post is way too long for other things that might happen this coming month just stay tuned and keep on reading chaps!


jagbyeol

Ave The Strange.

I'm always wrong but youre never right

so hi guys tell me how it feels when u r treated like a freakin whore??? anybody?? anyone?? well what if your own very loved one threw a bunch of money to the ground in front of everyone in your neighborhood expecting you to pick it up. and to the eyes of everyone around u,u probably look like a freakin whore/slut or maybe your like a freakin begger or maybe just a dog to be thrown a stick 2. how low can men treat women to bow to their very expectations. and when we say its wrong to do so no matter what the reason is because of human rights they still stand their ground and think they're the one whos right. how stupid for them to think so highly of themselves like kings of fools.. stupid to be proud on doing such a low thing, stupid to think that lowering others is a good thing. not human like, an animal in human form. i dont want to seem rude to point fingers at anyone but if you did it u probably know. to treat your girl in such a way is no good, and to think other girls would stand there and wait for u and follow your every will is such stupidity and ignorance. well, if you think thats about it your all dead wrong. to be spoken in a harsh tone upsets a womans heart as u may (want to) know a womans heart is fragile and soft. it easily breaks when u do harsh things to it, forget glass a womans heart is a freakin bubble! and its soft enough to except anything you do to them. they often say the things that they dont mean so they dont show their fragile side that is breaking away slowly. how they feel is as if theyre standing on the edge of a cliff and is being pushed little by little to jump down. and one day they might just do it. so keep them as a treasure, to achive a womans true love is not easy but to get a slut or a bitch beside you is more common than your own sense! so i think that is about all the things i want to say. i've seen my friends been verbally abused, and some have been hit and this is no way to treat a lady! when you need them by u, you r so nice to them but when your tired and mad they are the ones to get all the blame and are the ones to absorb all your pain and sufferings, and to carry your burden. remember one thing god created mowen to be companions to men so do not abuse them as sex objects or toys to be played with, they are not accesories to be worn. fin~

yours truly,

Ave The Strange.

Hectic, Dramatic, Psycho~

so hey there guys, its been a month or so since i updated my blog so now about time i whip up some new updates right? Things are going well so far, passed up my final projects and i did pretty well(i think) my lecturers gave a good response to my music album cover and my rock clothing company packaging & logo and next week is my exams for another 2 subjects so cross your fingers guys!!! wish me the best of luck!! other than that i've been browsing around for a new phone since my good old friend sony decided to crash and make my life a whole lot of a mess than it already is. so thinking it over and over i've decided to buy a Blackberry next year with the salary that i get for a part time job(that i still dont have). but dreams can be reality right?? and there is no harm trying to achieve one unless your dream is a bit wacko and everyone teases around about your stupid and unreal dream like trying to grow wings and fly(unless your a psycho scientist than go ahead and try!) and xmas is coming near and i doubt i'll be getting any gifts for xmas(as usual ever since i'm 10) but i keep my hopes high for a great evening with some friends by the beach having fun! what else would you do if you dont have anything else to do on a beautiful island with white sandy beaches? for starters of course we would hang by the beach and we could also cruse along the coast line or just have a great dinner at a nice restaurant right?? oh well.. but still its a normal thing to do in the city too. hang out somewhere, go have a stroll or something than have dinner somewhere grand.(and here i go mumbling away with my thoughts) anyhow holidays are coming so i'm gonna pack up for home again. So its bye-bye KL and hello Langkawi!!! there is no where like home right??? and oh! 1 more thing i have a suprise for u guys!! there will be a bit of a change next year. is it the blog?? my FB?? my Flickr?? my other pages?? me?? my family?? college?? what??? oh well that i will leave to your own imagination and maybe u might crack the secret up. till then.

Yours Truly,

Ave The Strange.

You Make Me Wanna Die

so hey... what to write up this time? well nothing really except some of the stuff that i find interesting ignore the title it has nothing to do with what i am writing up. recently the rock fashion is getting quite popular among Holywood celebrities such as Adam Lambert, Bill Kaulitz of Tokio Hotel, Ke$ha, Rihanna, Taylor Momsen and alot more and to me this is good news to those hard rockers as the fashion scene would be crowded up with rock fashion attire, but bad news is there would be alot of posers out there that would only dress up for the fashion insted of their interest in the music.well for my final assignment this semester i am required to create my own company and i have chosen to create a rockwear or rock clothing to be exact. my range of clothing would include shirts,skirts,jeans,jackets,shoes,and accessories using the rock concept. the thing is i'm still not quite sure about the brand name and the logo of the company. so i'll have to start research by now to get the results. wish me luck yea?

    so other than my final assignment, i've finished up my other recent assignments too. my photography assignment that requires me to shoot a model shoot and also an architecture shoot that requires me to shoot buildings. so for the architecture shoot i've done the shoot in Dataran Merdeka, Kuala Lumpur and may i say the photos turned out to be okay for an ammeture like me. so next week would be the presentation for the assignment and my photography got on hold again after a huge misunderstanding but unfortunately for the model shoot i was not there to join in for the fun as i wasnt feeling well, all in all we did a great job and i hope our results would be awesome too. for my islamic studies i lost contact with my mate, the last few days he wanted to pass me the notes for our presentation that would be going on tomorrow but just this morning i received news that he had an accident but still i'm not quite sure if it was HIM. so i guess our presentation would be on hold till the next 2 weeks cuz it will be Hari Raya during the next class so of course we are on holiday. Well hopefully he would be ok and my flu here would get better soon cuz i just cant stand this fugly voice i have now...till the next time i write~


Antio,

Ave The Strange

massive heartbreak but im ok :)

so hye whoever is reading this, last night was Paramores concert and as many of my friends know i am one of their biggest fans but sadly i am not one of the many fans with the time & money to be at their 1st concert in Malaysia. oh well, theres maybe next time right? & i promise my self 1 day i will meet up with them in person & tell them how much their music inspires me & changes my life. Hayley had always been my idol since i was 15, she is one of the many people in the music industry who wears anything she wants and doesnt really care what people might think about it(just my opinion, i dont really know her right?). most rock chicks might say wearing a dress or a skirt isnt cool or right but she says "its never wrong for a girl to wear skirts". like one of the lines in demi lovatos songs lala land "who says i cant wear my converse with my dress? well baby thats just me!". I am heartbroken cause i didnt go to Paramores concert, I nearly cried last night when i knew the shoe started but still i occupied my time with working on one of my friends project(who i am helping, i'm not doing it alone) where she needs to make a light or whatever stuff she had to do using recycled material. So, eventhough i'm sad for not being there for them to support them i know helping my friend is a great thing to do and that they matter to me too. Maybe by doing this good deed sacrificing their concert & saving the money my mom gives me for college studies i might end up with a miracle, who knows? i might get to meet Paramore after all! ^_^

well enough of that, just a few minutes ago i got news that a guy got killed near my apartment where i live. This place had become a HOT SPOT for crime since the day i came here, it is a nightmare and i feel restless here thinking am i safe and are my friends safe too? over the past moth there had been bag snatchers, fights(well thats normal enough), and there had been raids here too as it was also a hot spot for drug dealing and student prostitution. and last month someone abandoned a baby near the river behind our apartment and it DIED! OMG it was so scary, the police came to each house asking questions wheter we knew anything about it which of course we dont. but eventually the girl(the heartless b***h) got cought. hurm.. i cant wait to get a drivers licence and find another place to live. i hate thinking these things might happen to me too. well that is all and i think i'm gonna get over the whole Paramore thing soon. wish me luck and hopefully my search for a scholarship for my video course would end soon, it would be the most wonderful thing that had ever happen to me.until the next blog!


Adiosa!

Ave The Strange.

to run or to hide? to be me or to be someone else?

so heres the thing. i've been silent for quite a while now & i think its about time i updated right? lately i've felt like everything & everyone has been changing and i really dont like change unless its for the better. the thing that i hate most is when people around me, who are unique and beautiful the way they truly are change the very person they are to be someone else, another A crowd wanna be. a part of society, a part of another stupid judgement system where age is a limit to everything, like "grow up cartoons are for kids!" or "stop acting like a kid your 22 for gods sake!" and "that music is just for annoying little punks", since when people cant do what they like? it so stupid how people tolerate with this stupid things. if you feel like you want to be a kid, that just be a kid! why do we have to pretend to be another puppet in society? becoming the perfect adult? can someone tell me how many people in this world grow old and cranky? alot right?? and have you ever seen happy folks growing old turning into old cranky prunes? i dont think so.. the thing is i think people should know that being the person you are is more enjoyable than being the person you WANT TO BE! no need to try, you are who you are. you dress up the way you want to not according to the magazines. you eat because want to and as much as you want to no need to diet or do all those shitty stuff that keeps your self esteem down. people need to know that when they smile and feel happy for who they are, it shows their self confidence, and it also shows that they are a risk taker not afraid to fall and climb back up again. remember the term NO PAIN,NO GAIN? thats the thing u need to hold on to for the rest of your life. hopefully i wont change. i love cartoons, i love cheewing gum, i love rock music, i love punkish attire, i love t-shirts and old stinky jeans,  i love sitting on the couch all they watching tv never giving a fuck about anything else, and i love to be with my family and friends and doing the things that i want to do when ever i want to do it! so thats about it. hope what i just said did not offend anyone just my perspective a point of view that i have on the situation right now. i hate changes that sometimes make me feel like i dont know that person anymore. i just want to be like this, ME! for the rest of my UBER AMAZING LIFE!!!

Yours Faithfully,

Ave The Strange.

Top 10 things u need to know about me

hye guys so heres some things that i think u guys need to know about me. i know its kinda dumb doing this but i just think that rather than not updating my blog i figured i have to do something bout it. i cant let this blog die out. so here it is 10 things u need to know bout me.


1. I dont drink milk unless its chocolate milk or soy milk.
2. I love to eat, but i find it hard to gain weight. :/
3. I dont follow trends in particular but i just tend to buy things i find beautiful to wear. :)
4. addicted to paramore and eyes set to kill. alexia and hayley are my idols in fashion.
5. My fave channel would be MTV and my fave radio station is HITZ
6. I hate my legs and teeth. and my hands are not straight.
7. I'm half english but my english is pretty bad. ;p
8. I choose my friends and i find it hard to trust people to share my feelings and secrets.
9. If i like someone everyone else would just turn into a blur. so eventhough i dont have a boyfriend at the
    time and like someone. it will take some effort or some special attraction to make me like someone else. :)
10.If i hate a person, it would be hard for me to like that certain person.

so thats about it then. those are the top 10 but there are some other stuff too.. but you'll need to find out by your selves. till next time.

Yours Truly,

Ave The Strange.

Faculty Of Creative Arts and Design

hye guys, its been forever since i've written here. been quite busy lately, i've settled in college and am busy with assignments now. things are all well and smooth, though there are a few bumps and bruises along this short way. well all in all, i never regret the choice i made in choosing the Video Animation course. its a very cool thing after all, though you have to be super creative. for this first semester all courses under creative arts and designs will be in the same class except Intro to Multimidea and Animation which is only for Creative Multimedia(CM) and Video Animation(VA) students only. eventhough this course sounds easy but really its not that easy, but the advantage we have is that we can become kids again! experimenting colours and styles in drawing, create new ideas in 2D & 3D class, researching in History of Arts, do photography in Fundamental Photography, and learn more about technology in Intro to Multimedia and Animation.

ok enough of school stuff, now lets talk about life shall we? since i've been here i find life sometimes rough and sometimes smooth. i've seen people change from good to bad,bad to good and even people who are just themselves. i'm lucky enough to have found good friends with a well upbringing. We have so much similarities and we can get along with each other. we care for each other as if we are family eventhough we just knew each other. Iyna,Fiza,Wawa and Adel are my new super best friends!! we hang out with each other and i think we will have a long lasting friendship. Other than those four i also have a few close friends at home that i consider as my second family, kash,prisha,gee,darrien are one of the few that i'm close to.

ok so i think thats about it for now. dont have anything else to write of.

Till next time!


Ave The Strange

I'm Strange and I Like It, Just The Way I am

so hello..hello.. viewers(or readers??) i dont really have a purpose on wirting today but i just want to..so we had a bowling match again today (me and my friends myra,picart,syahmi,bobon,and amir) we had a blast!!! it was so much fun than the previous week. i hit alot of pins this time and sadly i broke a nail(OMG!!) hehe.. well thats so not worth the drama.. we had a good time and i know im gonna miss them alot. xpecially since i wont be seeing them for a long time.miera is off to matrix in kuala nerang,kedah. ieka got into uitm in sungai petani. and pikah,amin n picart got into uitm in perak.. hope everyone will keep in touch~ will really miss u guys like so bad!!

 now enough of the goodbyes now time for my music playlist! so the band i want you to tune is this time is the friday night boys, they are kinda popular(well you can say so). their music is the simple kind of highschool garage music?? well you can check them out on youtube or on myspace.here the link fellas!! ---> http://www.myspace.com/thefridaynightboys :) the other person i think you would like is marit larsen! shes one of the gals grom M2M.. yeah~  remeber?? no??? if not than you s*ck! hehe.. mind my languange ;p well shes singing solo now and she is way better than her other half marion raven(sorry marion just the honest truth). and know her new single is climbing up the charts in the US and i really like that song you can try it out.. maybe it'll suit your style?? (that doesnt sound right) well the songs called "if a song could get me you" go check it out now!!

ok thats all for now i guess?? i'll write again when i have the time and idea.. till next time!!

Love You Guys,

Ave The Strange.

i've changed alot, so now i'm turning back into the old me again.

hye guys, i know i've changed alot from when i first started this accout and i realized that i've been so bz thinking about all the things i lost, all the things i dont have, all the pain and suffering and stuff that i havent realized alot of things around me. i just realized i have the most awesome friends like ever in the history of friends! i have an amazing bionik mother! an annoying yet fun brother(i'm getting chills down my back lol), and i have the most nicest and caring boyfriend.. eventhough there are alot of people bringing me down, i now know that they are weaker than me that is why they are pushing me down. making me feel bad about my self when all along there is nothing to feel down about. i know my life is crappy, i know i aint brilliant,i know i'm not rich(thats for sure!) but i have a whole lot more and i'll make the best of it! thanks to all my friends for being there for me, through the highs and the lows. through the pain and sorrow, and is always there to cheer me up. when they're around i can never have a reason to be sad or feel mad. i'm really blessed and i really thank god. THANK YOU! THANK YOU!!!

well i'm not just writing this blog to thank people(and god). its kinda like my diary right? so i'm gonna write about some stuff thats going on in my life :) this 17th i will be registering at SEGi university college at damansara, and i am really excited to finally be doing something rather than sit on my but!! my flight will be on the 15th and i'll be hanging out in KL for a few days before registry. if you happen to see me, just say hello or you can just ignore me cause it doesnt really matter. the thing is i'm really excited to be doing this but i'm really sad about leaving my precious island and friends. i'm gonna miss the heat(eventhough its not much different between where i'm going and where i am now), i'm gonna miss the beaches, the sound of the waves crashing on the rocks and the white sand, the feeling when you have sand between your toes, the place me and my friends would always lepak, small things like calling up on a friend and abruptly asking him/her to hang out or just go have a piknik or something. i'm gonna miss a whole lot of things.. wish me luck guys!!

i hope i wont forget and never ever forget my past memories, the real me, my uber fantastic friends, and my beloved family. and most of all i hope i never forget my true dreams, i dont want to be chasing something that i really dont want. pray for me and i'll always be writing more.. ^_^

Lots of Love,

Ave The Strange.

I'm So Sorry, But I Cant Stand This Anymore.

hye guys, sorry but this post wont be the happy me writing normal stuff that i usually do. its just that i've been through a lot lately and i think that if i dont do this now i'll just fall apart peice by piece. My life has been going down hill since early this year, sorry to let you know but since the new year i have not been very happy, my mind is never at ease i cry a lot, i cant sleep, i cant do anything or i'll just mess up! i cant even have a conversation with anyone cause i'll turn out boring and dull. i've been praying to god to just wash away all these things that keep bothering my mind, i've never been this fragile all my life. i used to be like "oh, so u hate me then thats fine. just leave then," and i dont mean this only in relationship i used to be like this even in friendship. i used to be so strong and i could just control my feelings, i could hold back my tears on anything till lately its been draining out of my eyes each and everynight. some nights if i'm lucky enough i wont cry, if theres someone there to make me think of other things i wont. i really feel like running somewhere with no one there to bother me, so i can cry and scream and yell all i want cause right now i need to protect myself so no one else would get hurt. i feel so plastic sometimes, pretending to like someone that i dont just so i wont cry at night because they make me happy. some of my friends arent even friends, they just text me or im me about whatever and i'll just laugh along because it uses up my time. So yes, i'm plastic i'm a faker, i fake my feelings. but is it wrong that i'm doing this? i feel regret in my vains. why am i doing this?? its all happening right now since the new year and i just dont want to do this anymore. i just want to smile like i used to, cry when i want to and theres always someone there to comfort me and hug me to make me feel okay. i just miss being happy, and i keep praying that this wrong step, the wrong choice/path that i've taken will lead me to happiness somehow. i dont know maybe this is all a mistake, or maybe its just a test? all i can do now is keep on going. should i keep on faking or should i just stop this nonsense now? oh god please help me..

solo quiero encontrar el verdadero amor, y quiero que él aquí conmigo ahora

pray for me guys,

Ave The Strange. 

Lets Battle!!!

so hye again n again.. welcome to my new blog post and our new month in this new year(yey!) well this time i'll review another few bands that you should check out first of is the talented christopher sleeps or was known as a sunset diary before changing their names. he plays an abstract kind of music and is very soothing, often collabs with other musicians and his music sounds awesome. this guy is from australia and i really think you guys should check him out http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zqGxKFZ4uSk.

so next in line is a metal rock band from Japan known as Myproof, so this is a new band introduced to me by a friend and must i say i love them!! the music is great not really heavy and i think it is easily excepted. if you love eyes set to kill then you will love this band. i promise you, you wont regret tuning into their music. >_<

so movie of the blog(sounds wierd but oh well) is Into The Wild its an awesome movie it is based on a true story. Its about a college graduate who realized that he has been wasting his life for such a long time doing things to satisfy others who well dont really care about him they just want to use him to make themselves feel proud(parents listen up!). because he felt disgusted by these 'people' who actually lied to him all this while and feels that society sucks!(sorry for the bad language) he then runs off and becomes a tramp or more known as leather tramp because he doesnt have wheels to travel in. so after years of working and traveling and meeting new people he then decides to go into the wild to be one with nature and hoping he would be at peace there. hoping that it is way better and uncruel like the society around him. so.. if you want to know more and want to know the ending watch it yourself and hopefully it touches you the way it did with me. its a worth watch movie, really nice and it goes deep. :)

and know about me,myself and i. i've been bored lately, nothing really excites me anymore but the fact that maybe i'll be going to college soon and resume my studies.(what???) yes i'm excited that i'm going to go learn something. this is like the first time in my hollow,gloomy,sad life that i really want to learn and get off my lousy bump! hopefully it will be next month so i wont feel bored anymore. i've also started playing digimon battle, an online game that was recently launched. its an international game so you can interact with people from all over the world. its basicly the same with the digimon games on the play station, but you can catch and train digimons and battle with other trainers and there are quests that you need to complete. so yeah.. i like it but its nearly the same as other online games that i've played but with characters that i know and really liked to watch when i was a kid( not like i'm that old) so thats about it, dont wanna waste your times reading all of these stuff. bye guys!

Love You Guys A Lot! >_<

Ave The Strange.

Enough Emotional Sh*t!!!

hye there, so from now onwards i'll stop writing emotional and mushy stuff i know you guys hate those stuff. so i wont write those stuff no more. so now i'm just gonna review on a few bands that i find very cool to listen to. first off is the band vertigo whales they're a contemporary band and they create soothing music, you should go have a listen they have a myspace account so you guys can check them out there or just buy them off on i tunes. :)

Another band that i like is April chase, if you love Paramore and music similar to theirs you should check out April Chase. Their music is easy going and easily excepted by most ages(expecially teens). they're still new and needs love so please do check em out and support them if you love their music, their first single is out and you can view the music video on their page on myspace or on youtube(search april chase music). April Chase-Turn It Down.


Well i think those are the bands you should check out for now, i'll update more bands soon so you can check them out! so now a movie that i think you should search and check out is "GADOH" an independant movie that showcases the racist-ism in Malaysian that we never really see. it also touches on the teaching technique used by the gavorment that doesnt really teach the students to become a thinker but really just teaches the students to memorize and become a follower. Its a really good movie but is banned because it shows too much of what the people dont agree with the goverment and how the goverment is really bias with only siding with the malays race and not really giving opportunity to the other races(which is really unfair even to me as a Malay think so). So i really think you should check it out, really makes you think of our country(how it REALLY is). so thats about it about the movie, i really dont think this movie should be banned. the goverment should just reflect on what these guys are trying to show them.

so thats about it for now. catch you guys later!

xoxo,

Ave The strange