Monday, February 22, 2010

Right or Wrong, Results & Psycho Stalker?

so tell me what do you do when what you wanted came true but its not a good thing? do you feel bad about it? or will you feel like "at last!"? something similar to this happened to me, and when i 1st knew about it i was like smiling and was so happy and i felt like saying stuff like "yeah! in your face b*tch" or something like "serves you right, what goes around will come arounf back 2 ya". but then i felt so bad about it, about the bad thing that happened to the person and everyone close to the person. but still, i have to admit it felt really good when the thing happened. sorry i'm not telling you guys about "The Thing That Happened" but my mom told me not to tell anyone so i'll have to handle it alone i guess.

other than then secrecy of my life, i'm flippin out on myself. i really freaked out when i got hold of the dates SPM results are coming out, my hands even shaked like its freezing cold that i couldnt even read the text my friend sent me regarding the result stuff. i'm kinda nervous about my results cause i'm not that bringt(honestly) and i really messed up on a few papers because i got sick on the final papers. but oh well, its done anyway the results are already with our teachers just waiting to be processed and given out. so wish me luck on that.

recently i was also stalked and it felt really scary to be stalked. theres this guy who added me on myspace and was kinda nice to me, but then he said he liked me and stuff but i say i already had a guy(i still had a boyfriend at the time)but still he would say stuff that made me feel akward and uncomfortable to chat with him and he was acting more like a stalker person from that moment. so i blocked this guy from my myspace account but then he got hold of my facebook account(which i never knew he added me before) and started adding my dad and stuff. and he added my mom and my mom was asking me questions "is he your boyfriend?", or "do you know this guy?", "why does he keep adding me?" and i'll just answer i dont know, eventhough i deleted him from every single account he would still be lurking somewhere. and now out of no where his here in langkawi and i'm getting really annoyed, i dont like attention so much(well from people i dont know) and i;m thinking of reporting this to the cops or any authorities but its kinda off the charts right? so, if i'm killed by a psycho stalker please tell my mom about this so they could trace him(just kidding i dont think he would kill me) but still just incase ;p.

Until Next Time,

Ave The Strange.

Sunday, February 7, 2010

hye guys, so been on9 now pretty mush every day. i've resigned from my last job and even though i got a new job i just didnt feel like working anymore. just want to wait for my results and continue life as it is, but still i really, really,really miss school. i miss all the teachers that kept giving us piles and piles of homework, and i miss my silly and hyper class friends, miss the Cafeteria Lady who would give priority to me because i was always nice to her. urgh.. how i really hate leaving school, the grown up life is not a place for me to live in. but still, i'm really looking forward to get into collage to study again. just cant wait to study video directing(if i get into UiTM), so what do you think? if i didnt make it to UiTM should i apply for performing arts in Sunway? its a bit expensive though. but still its worth while, my friends studying performing arts in sunway and will be continuing her studies and specializing in theater. i envy her alot, she got to study dance in jakarta and didnt have to take SPM to get to where she is now. but her dance training in jakarta was very rough though, it was like a torture hell there you have to stand up straight, the posture has to be precised or not you'll be beaten with a goong stick in the back and that doesnt feel good either. i studied dance with her before when i was about 13/14, and as i far as i've seen, the balinese dance in Malaysia are all so bad!!(sorry to say) i have seen several dances here in Malaysia and it disappointed me, so i hope she could make a difference. she has the right attitude to train people for the dance.

well enough of that, i've been blabering about the dance now. other than those stuff, i've bought a new phone its a cheap one though but its better than my old phone that needs to be tied with rubber band to work :)) such a pittyfull phone. buying the phone caused me to loose about 90% of my salary in just about an hour. than i had to use the other 10% to pay for my car license registration, and now i'm broke.

huh! that was a lot to write. catch ya guys later. i'll write again when i have the time.

Love You Guys Always xoxo,

ave the strange.

The Lovers Of The Heart

originally by suicide ally on myspace(sorry for taking it, but i did mention its yours)
when i read it, it just made sense that i had to post it so others can view it too.

The Lovers of the Heart

Article 1:

Statement of Love:
The Kiss

1.Kiss on the hand
I adore you

2. Kiss on the cheek
I just want to be friends

3. Kiss on the neck
I want you

4.Kiss on the lips
I love you

5.Kiss on the ears
I am just playing

6.Kiss anywhere else
lets not get carried away

7. Look in your eyes
kiss me

8.Playing with your hair

I can't live without you

9. Hand on your waist
I love you to much to let you go

Article 2:
The Three Steps

1. Girls:
If any guys gets fresh with you, slap him.

2. Guys
If any girl slaps you, her intentions are still good.

3.Guys & Girls
Close your eyes when kissing, it is rude to

Article 3:
The Commandments

1. Thou shall not squeeze too hard.

2.Thou shall not ask for a kiss, but take one.

3.Thou shall kiss at every opportunity.

Here are a few reasons
why guys
like girls:

1. They will always smell good
even if its just shampoo

2. The way their heads always
find the right spot on our shoulder

3. How cute they look when they sleep

4. The ease in which they fit into our arms

5. The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world

6. How cute they are when they eat

7. The way they take hours to get dressed
but in the end it makes it all worth while

8.Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside

9. The way they look good no matter what they wear

10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think
she's the most beautiful thing on this earth

11. How cute they are when they argue

12. The way her hand always finds yours

13. The way they smile

14. The way you feel when you see their name
on the call ID after you just had a big fight

15. The way she says 'lets not fight anymore'
even though you know that an hour later....

16. The way they kiss when you do something nice for them

17.The way they kiss you when you say 'I love you'

Actually ... just the way they kiss you...

19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry

20. Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly

21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt
22. Then the way they apologize
when it does hurt. (even though
we don't admit it)!

23. The way they say 'I miss you'

24. The way you miss them

25. The way their tears make you want to
change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore..... Yet regardless if you love them,
hate them, wish they would die or
know that you would die without them ... it matters not. Because once in your life,
whatever they were to the world
they become everything to you.
When you look them in the eyes,
traveling to the depths of their souls
and you say a million things without trace of
a sound, you know that your own life
is inevitable consumed within
the rhythmic beatings of her very heart.
We love them for a million reasons,
No paper would do it justice.
It is a thing not of the mind
but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt.

thats all for now. catch ya later

Yours truly,

Ave The Strange