Have A Break! Have A KIT KAT!

Hye guys, its 3 in the morning and i'm still running! i dont know why i'm not sleepy or even tired yet, its not like i had coffee or anything today. Well enough of the thoughtless chatter and lets get to the topic. Lately alot more Malaysian are making Vlogs on youtube and i think thats great! but still the number of vloggers are still small and i hope more would come up to voice out in their videos :) like i used to once upon a time. Other than the vlogger stuff, i love searching on girls who are wearing hijab and suprisingly there are alot that you could take as inspiring fashionistas! and alot more people are realizing that, and i love that alot more girls are starting to wear hijab but the thing is if you wanna wear it, WEAR IT! not just as a fashion thing, but because you really want to. I know how Malaysians love to follow trends and stuff but sometimes its kinda annoying knowing that its just for a short while. When Shuffling was in everyone shuffled even on the streets at Bukit Bintang, but now do you see anyone doing that? not really.. and the trend now is everyone must have a DSLR camera and take lame photos and adding marks like "mariaPhotography" and such just to show off? what is with all that? cant you just mark it with your name? you really need to type in those Photography words on too so people know its art? its actually really annoying! and everyone must ride fixie bikes too.. or they wont be in the click? and here we r at the last thing Hijab! people are getting more and more obsessed with Hana Tajima and such but why should you follow the trend if its for a short while? why cant you do things the way you want it? and wear whatever you want whenever you want? learn to be independant not dependant on what people think of you. I love wathing girls wear hijab but learn to love it and be a good Muslim dont use it as a tool to attract attention. That is all for this post, thats my take for the new trends the kids are following this days. Till next time!

Cheerio,


Ave The Strange

Lets jump up & down & pretend its ok :D

nothing to say just to watch i guess? enjoy if you like this.. it's so sweet how he took care of his fiance even though she's not really her old self anymore. I want to be exactly like him, i'll b there through the highs and the lows.. even if he gets sick like Chris Medina's fiance. I am feeling alot better thanks to a few friends, sorry didnt reply any private messages. I just simply didnt know what to write, and thanks to my beshties Myra, Eika, and Effa for being there for me and making me feel better, thanks to Marija, Isyamir, and Syahmi for asking me to share the problem. Love all you guys, thanks for being the most awesome friends ever(eventhough we never met before) :) cheers,

Thanks a bundle,

Ave The Strange.

Drowning & nobodies saving me

hye, so lately i have been gloomy and not bright like i used to b. life looks so dark nowadays that it frightens me, nobodies there to hear me out on my problems not even my my bf(now my ex) its frustrating to try to speak out when no one is listening, and your screaming to the top of your lungs and nobody cares. i feel like i've lost all hope in living at all. everything thats dear to me are taken away and in a few more days or month i'm surely goona give up for good cuz i;m just waiting for that buzzer to sound. i cant stand watching every one that i love in pain and i;m the one who stands by to listen to them taking up all their fear and pain to make them feel better when i myself am in pain & no one ever wants to save me not even the dearest to me. To the people around me, i;m selfish cuz i dont give them what they can give me, money, help, food, fun! but they dont see that all i want is a talk, a hug, some caring and love. When i;ve been trying to give them all that they wouldnt even care to notice. I am a nobody i have nothing more to give other than that, and i've given up hope in all of the creatures that are men. They dont care, they just give pain. they give hope and take it away, they leave their children, loved ones, wife or anything else for fun, for joy they only come back when they want love. some people might like that but for me, a person who lived alone her whole life, and the only love that i get is from my mother who is hardly home working. & my brother who left the house when i was in primary school to live in the hostel. my only best friend is myself, the only person who knew what men did to me is me. people around me dont know anything that happened to me. i never share cuz no one listens. & when i try to trust, i'm decieved and i'm left to suffer alone. all i wanted was to be happy and no one could give me that and now more torture is given to my family and me. and i finally think that its time for me to leave. And no one would care if i go, so i'll suffer slowly to my end. whatever it takes to end the misery through the pills or the smoke. i'll just end up another pile of dirt right? till we meet again(if we do) take care. Salam

Love you till death,

Ave The Strange.